"the second birthday"

2025

Over the past two years, I've experienced a range of emotions surrounding these big milestones, allowing myself the freedom to feel whatever comes up - whether it's joy, sadness, or something in between. This year, my Mom's second birthday after her passing was no different.

That morning, I woke up with deep sadness. I read her the birthday card I had chosen, allowing myself to privately miss her. I wished that she could be here with us to enjoy her favorite cake and share in the celebration.

But then, something unexpected (but welcomed) happened: about an hour later, a wave of positive emotions washed over me. It felt like the excitement I get after months of keeping a gift a secret, and then eagerly watching someone special unwrap something I’ve carefully chosen or made just for them. I realized that, despite the sadness, I was excited to honor her, to celebrate her in a way that felt right for both of us.

The rest of the day unfolded with that same positive energy. There was also a sense of peace that carried me through. I truly believe she was and is happy that the day was full of positivity and love, though I know she would understand sadness.

That being said, no matter the milestone, I hope you permit yourself to feel whatever comes up. Whether you experience those emotions in the moment or choose to set them aside for later, I wholeheartedly encourage you to honor your feelings and let yourself truly feel.

Happy Birthday, Mom 💙

-j🌻